Hello again

Logging into this shit hole after 2 odd years. Place still has that familiar welcoming feel. Fuckin' cool I must say.

Did I ever mention that I had another blog where I was less anonymous since it became pretty popular ? Yeah well I started writing *that* blog in 2009. And it started on one glorious day when I had one of those indescribable feeling of inspiration that just kicks you in the nuts, grabs you by the throat, sticks a finger up your pie hole and tells you-"Son, from this day forth you write".

Well I had that today. So finally I get down to writing. Woot. Not that anybody reads my sad little rambling. Oh well all the better. I can talk about all sorts of scandalous shite.

I hooked up with this nice little gal couple of months back. Turned out we weren't compatible so we broke up in November. But a month or so back she said she wanted to talk. And-I swear to black hippie Jesus this is true- I don't know what she told me but few hours later we were tentatively back together. Now we still are incompatible as ever. And I still don't know what the heck am I doing. She talks of marriage while I am wondering as to what in the good lord's name am I doing with her.

Fucking hell man.

I think I need a god damn shrink. Gotta search for one in my shit hole city. Bleargh.


P.S Oh and I ordered this naughty school girl costume off some site (Privy pleasures.com or something along those lines). Man that stuff is G-O-O-D ! Y'all need to get some of that shit to spice up your miserable little sex lives (assuming you have some poor sod trapped). You are welcome.

Have you ever had one of those day ?

Where you just want to go to the roof and lie down and just feel the breeze while lying on the edge ?

Take the car out for a spin, go on the highway, push the engine to it's limits and the let go of the steering wheel and let fate take it's course ?

Wondered what it would be like to jump of the roof and float through the air, weightless like an feather, before your body crumpled into the ground ?

Wanted to hug your family and cry. Out of gratitude for everything. And for failing to be a better son and brother ?

Wanted to kiss that one person who sits across from you in the bus while going to office, next time you see her. Without feeling any attraction. And let the chips fall where they may ?

Felt like screaming. At the top of your voice. Until you can scream no more. Until your throat feels like the fires of hell have sprung from within ?

To just start running and keep running without a goal or a thought, just keep running in the false hope that you can leave everything behind and be alone, just be you and your body ?

To hate your reflection and punch the mirror, letting each glass shard slice your wrist  and feel the blood trickle between your fingers ?

Wanted to get into a fight with a total stranger. And just pummel him. See his confused face disappear beneath your fists as it is replaced by a blurred mess of blood and tissue and tendons ?

Just stand in the middle of a railway track with your arms stretched out and feel the horn grow louder and louder until you feel the inevitable thud ?



It's one of those days.

Darling mother tried to have a go at moi lil ol' computer about 3 weeks back. Wanted to book some tickets online apparently. She ended up corrupting my OS and leaving my computer-less for the past 3 weeks.

Thanks ma. What would i do without you ?

So here i am reduced to FB-ing and Blogspot-ing at office , glancing over my shoulder every so often to see if my boss is approaching. Neck hurts like a bitch from all that turning. Speaking of bitches ....

I think i am over my ex. Almost . 99%. That's good enough for me. We can deal with the remaining 1%. Hoorah for closure ? You betcha !

Also you know what's a nice feeling ? Logging into FB after a long while and seeing 60 odd notifications. I used to laugh at people whose entire lives revolved around notifications and likes. And now i am one of them. Could i be sadder ? Sigh.

Luckily i have a few good things going for me to compensate for that disappointment . I have become good friends with this girl i used to date back in 2nd year of college. Been 4 years since we broke up but we have remained good friends all through out because we were best friends before we started shacking it up. So we are hoping to pick it up from we left off. As best friends obviously. Plus she is open to bunking office to go for random outings. JACKPOT.Feels nice to have a good bud after so long.

Oh and i just got a pay hike. And a new project. So professional life is boomin' like hell. Yay. Though in hindsight i just realized that it means i will have to work late hours and not be able to take holidays easily.

crap

Plus my 23rd birthday is fast approaching next month. On a sour note- i share my birth date with le ex (26 October), so it's gonna be an unfortunate remainder about her. If this was a movie story this would be the part where the audiences would boo and hiss at the mention of her name. Wishful thinking much , i know.

Aaaaanyways i think i better go do some work to justify my pay check.

Toodles y'all.

Here's to happy times ..

So i finally got over the ex, cut contact with her and asked her never to contact me again. And boy does it feel effin' good to finally grow a pair.

Yay me.

Life seems to be looking up these days. Been going out a a lot. Meeting new people at this event that i am helping to organize. Getting in touch with old friends. The last one particularly, because it turns out that quite a few had a crush on me and now that the news of breakup is out quite a few secrets are popping out of the closet. I am basking in the attention and lovin it McD style (yes i am developing an ego but fuck you i deserve this)

The best part is that i have closure with the ex i can travel to delhi without wanting to meet her (yeah she studies there). The future , for now, seems fun enjoyable and full of good things waiting to happen.

If i don't keep myself in check i might just turn in to an optimist.

Eitherways am gonna be enjoying this shit while it lasts.

Cheers bitches !

Epic. Shite. Heh

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-m7e7tCn7Bk


Mothereffin awesome song + you  hafta check out the top comment thread on this vid.


Most epic thing ever.


You are welcome.

Doesn't really take much to get me up

That's true.


Had a pretty decent Saturday for a change. I went for this cultural thing. This cute girl there flirted a bit with me. Boo yeah . Good ego boost ya know what with all the dealing with the ex's rejection. Reminded me of the good ol' days when i used to receive quite a bit of attention.

Plus i went to watch 'Shirin aur Farhan ki nikal padi'.That movie is the anthem for Forever Alone people if there ever was one. Good time pass though.




Unfortunately i could totally see myself easily crossing 40 and being single like Boman Irani's character in the movie. Except far less adorable. God damn.

Also the theater was filled with all sorts of couples cuddling and smirking together at jokes. FUCK YOU YOU JIZZGUZZLERS WHO THINK YOU'RE SO AWESOME FLAUNTING YOUR RELATIONSHIP IN THE GODDAMN THEATER AND AT LINE AT THE SNACK STAND. I HOPE YOUR PRIVATE PARTS SHRIVEL AND FALL OFF


Well that was cathartic.

Office beckons tomorrow. Bleargh.

Here's to hoping next weekend is as good. FML

Mark Zuckerberg- Fuck you

So my fb profile got shifted to the timeline. Finally.

Don't get me wrong it seems to be cool- but i like some stability in my life. Oh i love changes, i do man. Fuck monotony, that motherfuckin' shit be stiflin'. But then I also like having certain few things in my life that i can come back to after years and still not see any change ya know ?

Or maybe i am being silly. It's 12 in the night and i guess i am not making any sense. 

Anyways am tripping on Pink Floyd and this singer i came across called Adele. Seems to be pretty famous. Guess am pretty late to jump  on the bandwagon then. But by golly that woman has the rawest voice i have heard in a while. Gave me friggin goosebumps.

 

 

This 

This played right after Pink Floyd's 'Comfortably Numb' is like sex for my ears. Try it.

Go on.

You can thank me late..